You could never imagine, just how beautiful you are to me
When I was younger girls didn’t really like me It might be I was too weird or too wacked or more likely I was just poor and they thought that I was creepy I couldn’t get one to smile at me let alone sleep with me you always want what you just can’t have And the grass is always greener than an empty plastic bag After high school graduation I just chilled for a year I did drugs with my friends and I drank too much beer Then I went to college mopped floors in the evening In the morning went to class but I ended up leaving I dropped out and you can call it a cop out But I got my heartbroken, threw my books and my mop out That girl made me feel my world falling apart So I moved back home to try and get a fresh start But that only led to more drinking and drugs I’d be thinking about suicide if I wasn’t fucked up And then my older brother got addicted to dope Mom became an alcoholic, I was running out of hope But all this time, I was still playing guitar Make thirty five dollars for playing some bullshit bar Cover songs all night long, just a couple of my own But I started writing rhymes again and checking microphones Then Crafty Dan gave me some money to record a CD So I went into the studio with Freaky Pete and Adam Z And for the first time in my life, I felt I had something real Nobody could take away, and nobody got steal So I said my goodbyes and I said my so longs And I packed up my bags and I moved to the Bronx
I booked a few gigs, started playing the trains Coinstar rock star, just a cashing in change Played in a punk band, not allowed back at CBGB’s Got on BET, that Rap channel on TV And it seems all my dreams was about to come true I met a girl named Nicole, went to school at NYU Record companies were calling, started getting better bookings Me and Nicole got an apartment out in Brooklyn But it all fell apart and I got real depressed Nicole couldn’t take it, so she up and she left And she moved to California with some other guy I’m left all alone again wondering why What could I do, deep down, I knew that I had blew it But I knew that I’d get through it ‘cause I still had my music Mom’s situation was fucked, but I could move in with Dad, Yeah with him, his girlfriend, her three kids and two cats So I bussed down to Florida, which is where I’m at now Ended up in Pasco County if you’re wondering how Started dating a girl who didn’t Judge where I’m at And I never even told her I appreciated that But then I met someone new and I left her alone I remember she was crying when I hung up the phone Another girl took control of my world and mind Love at first sight was leaving me blind When I can’t pay my bills, I got my music
When I’m out of cheap thrills, I got my music When I’m chillin’ with the peeps, I got my music When I can’t get to sleep, I got my music When I’m jealous and alone Strung up and hung up on the phone, I got my music Living in a false world, just a trying to stay true, And even if I don’t got you, I got my music